I realize most moms, like me, have forgotten what uninterrupted sleep is. Remember being in college and sleeping from midnight until noon the next day? Or those blissful nights before you had children when you actually woke up feeling refreshed? How about waking up in the same bed you fell asleep in? That last one may only apply to me, but honestly sometimes I don't even know where I am until I open my eyes.
Oh sleep, how I miss you. What? You miss me too? No surprise really, we haven't spent much solid time together in the last five years.
My kids aren't even bad sleepers. It's just so difficult to get a good night's sleep for so many reasons. I hear every single noise everywhere around me. My boys tend to come in to our room in the middle of the night and ask me to go back to their beds with them. Then I move back to my bed (sometimes). I go to sleep way later than I should because I cherish the time I have without people pulling me or talking to me or whining to me.. Even when my all of my kids sleep over at my parents, which hasn't been since before Maggie was born, I can't sleep all night because it feels so strange to not have them in the house. I'm my own worst enemy in the sleep department.
I don't want to wish time away, but boy am I looking forward to about 20 years from now when I can go to sleep at anytime, sleep all night, and get up at my own leisure.
Maybe I should start drinking coffee. Or go to bed earlier. Or get a sleep apnea machine like Roman and hear nothing.
Or perhaps I should just continue being a mom and sleep later on in life. Yes, I think that's exactly what I'll do.