The last few weeks in our house have been full of ups and downs. It definitely doesn't help that I have been struggling with all of this PPD stuff again. Every time I start or stop the medication I spend the few weeks going up or down with a headache. And the exhaustion.. oh the exhaustion. I am fully aware that an anti-depressant is supposed to help you feel good and like yourself again. However, for me, it takes away the panic and anxiety, but also makes me so sleepy, which in turn makes me borderline miserable. It really doesn't help that I had those wonderful few weeks of feeling healthy, motivated and energetic in between ending the medication and having to go back on. I do have days where I can get lots done, but my kids have been very needy lately which makes it even harder to accomplish anything. Between all three of them being sick, Maggie getting three teeth and counting, and Roman having a procedure on Friday that left him in bed over the weekend, I am spent and ready for a mom-cation.
We ended the school year with the announcement that the class we had enrolled Evan in for next year was eliminated due to low enrollment. Yikes. Not exactly the time to learn that information. Fortunately we have figured that situation out and he is now registered in a different preschool in town. I actually think it's going to be a great fit for him and he will be getting more hours in three days than Braeden did in four. If you know me at all, you know that I am not particularly good with change so this whole situation took a toll. But I calmed down, figured out what to do and took care of it. Now we await all the changes that getting used to a new school will bring. I am determined to show no fear so that Evan goes in with confidence and strength. Here's hoping anyway.
The boys have been fighting like they are in a cage match. All day long I am reminding them to keep their hands to themselves, not touch each other, be kind, don't slap, don't hit, don't punch, etc., etc,. etc. During this time they have both been sick which makes them beyond sensitive and with Evan, he didn't sleep well for three nights so he's very tired along with not feeling well. A very bad combination for sure.
Maggie has gotten three teeth in three weeks and there are three more trying to push their way through. I love that little girl so much, but I'm so used to her easy going personality that I almost don't know what to do when she screams at me to hold her for half the day. My mom just said to me the other day, "in eleven months, I've never seen her fussy like this". It is very true and I am so grateful for that. I just wish there was something I could do to make it all happen faster and let her feel better.
But... on the up side, swimming lessons start tomorrow. Now Braeden will have something to do each day that lets him leave the house. We'll probably all go the first day, but after that I think it will be good for the boys to have some time apart, even if it's only for an hour a day. We also have A Day Out With Thomas scheduled for this week which, even though it's 2 1/2 hours away, should be a very fun day.
I am so thankful that we have friends and family so close around us to spend time with to break up the days. We are beyond lucky to have good friends down the street that we go back and forth with during the week. The kids love playing together so it's convenient and nice for the kids and adults. It's so nice to have such good friends within walking distance. As we add in more activities and adventures, I'm sure things will calm down, but boy oh boy, what a start to the summer around here.